wishing all lots of love and joy in the coming new year! happy happy 2006...

i'm simply not in the christmas mood this year. what a big big difference! i'm guessing that i must have used up all the christmas spirits for the next 3 years during the christmas celebrations last year.

not many gifts were bought, i didn't feel excited at all and it just felt like another holiday. which is bad. i felt depressed over it. why am i not in the christmas holiday mood this year? why? why? why?

christmas is absolutely my favourite holiday of the year because of all the lights, presents, food and friends coming together. but can you believe it, i did not had any christmas dinner at all! *wails*

i even attended a funeral of a close friend's dad on christmas eve. how happy can i be? i feel really really really sad and sorry for her. its so so so scary as well. *sighs*

this year's christmas is a big disaster to me. its not that bad to all as the usual christmas bbq went on fine but to me its... ... ...

i started late, i didn't invite many people, i didn't cook anything unlike last couple of years where i will prepare pasta and stuffs and of course, the demise of my close friend's dad did play a part in making me feel life can be so fragile yet we always take it for granted. which kinda diminishes the festive mood a little.

my lost spirit made me not buy dar and regan a christmas present. kinda serious right! i did try to because i got off work very early on friday. thus, went to shop but the shopping centre was so freakingly packed that i left after like 15 minutes of shopping. how to buy anything you tell me?

i did not buy many presents actually. like a grand total of 6 (because they were compulsory - christmas dinner gift exchange)? and oh ya, plus 1 as i helped my colleague buy one for the branch christmas presents exchange.

but dar was sweet this year and got me a top. it was a surprise! i wasn't expecting anything lor. last few years nothing ma. pretty or should i say very touched.

i've got many pictures to post but dar just reformatted the pc and the bluetooth adapter is not installed yet. so that gotta wait ba. =P

my christmas break is a long one as i'm on off this couple of days but end up being construction worker at my dad's abode. imagine me hacking and dismantling and painting and climbing. haha... NO LA NO LA, i where got so li hai, i was just hanging around in the background watching dar do it. =)

wanted to extend my rest day for another day but too short-handed. i must grumble 'WHY cannot handle? WHY do you need me to be back? WHY you all do things so slow?' ok, i got that off my chest so at least tomorrow when i go in, i won't be pulling a long face.

hais, i still feel sad why i'm not in the festive mood on my most looking-forward-day of the year. i must do something about it next year. "tian ling ling, di ling ling, christmas spirit kuai lai ling ming nian yao lai ling!" hmmm, that should work! =D

maybe try to make up for it on new year's eve and day then. hee... anyone heard of a new year's present?

'wo hao men ar!'

singapore is so small, so nothing to do and so boring. we don't have 4 seasons, we don't have natural beautiful works of mother nature, we don't have waterfalls, streams, lakes, rivers, we don't have beautiful clean blue beaches... the only ONE thing i'm glad we don't have is natural disasters.

think when god made earth and singapore, somehow, someone bargained and traded everything else out for no natural disaster hor. right? what do you think? i think so lor. maybe.

hmmm, is there anywhere else in the world where there's no natural disaster but got more things than singapore? maybe because their land bigger so can bargain for more things. singapore too tiny le ba.

can tell i very bored right. going sentosa in a short while. can't think of anything else to do. don't want to go to shopping malls thats packed with people like sardines. then spend more money also.

hais, tomorrow would be another 'MANIC MONDAY'! so which is better - boring sunday or manic monday? i can't decide. really...

i'm never happier than before. then again maybe i was too deprived of happiness sometime back when i was so busy being sad at work remember? but anyways, as i was saying i'm happy and that's scary. i'm never one to believe i can be happy and always STAY happy. i always feel if i'm too happy, its always a prelude to something disastrous. just like the chinese idiom or english saying goes 'the calm before the storm'.

how ironical i am and life is sometimes, isn't it? i want to be happy but when i'm happy, i get worried and end up not that happy because i would be thinking when will some calamity befall. oh well... enough of awful thoughts as my favourite month of the year is here once again.

i love december and all that is coming along. i'm in a pretty much festive mood organizing christmas dinners with friends and all. have yet to do my christmas shopping. hmmm, dig some time out soon, i hope. hee...

work has been great this couple of weeks. albeit me falling sick almost whole of last week and still not fully recovered as of now. caused 2 colleagues to fall sick too and went on mc as well. *bleahz* its really a potent flu virus lor, i tell you!

but work is really going well - getting along with my colleagues, knowing more about all the systems and processes, near home etc. i'm really enjoying it more and more. so good right! i'm really happy too.

i just msn-ed with one of my ardent fan. haha... no lah, not fan, maybe just a occasional by-passer whom added me on the msn. i should say the bypasser is pretty lucky because i'm pretty anti-social. i don't add any-one and every-one. so to be on my list, thats pretty tough. i mean got thing to chat with a stranger meh?

well, next msn-name-adder got to run background check already. =P i always believe the point of friends is not the quantity but the quality of the relationship. a few good ones are enough to last a lifetime lor! =)

hmmm, it just surprises me that there's people i don't know really about my life. all along, i thought perhaps that theres only those few close friends i have whom patronises my blog - mengli jie, dap, cal, uzyn, sek ling, xiaoluo, ...... , ..... erm and thats it. but whoa, there really is other people reading lor!

then i must maintain a image already le lor. i got image one ok! haha...

but anyways, i find there's so many people that blog for attention or for bloggership and what not. theres so much news about those controversial people. i do read their blogs on and off for entertainment, however, end of the day, i still find blogging a means of way to keep in touch with my friends like knowing what they are up to even without chatting or meeting up. on top of reminding me years down the road what i did during that time la hor. a means of supplement to my deteriorating memory! haa...

its nice to go into your friend's blog, see what they have been busy with, thinking about, going to do and be in touch AND vice versa. not for some fame or for money or what lor.

listening to olivia olsen's 'all i want for christmas' and that's my favourite song when it comes to december along with billy mack's 'christmas is all around'! they are songs from 'love actually' and i love that movie. so touching lor. i watched it around this time last year. so "lomantic" can... *awwwww*

time for bed for me now and before i forget, christmas dinner anyone?